Archive for November, 2001


So it’s Friday, night. I’m feeling pretty tired from the seemingly long week that I’ve had. I suppose that’s why I’m home instead of out. Well, I did step out for a little while to get a pearl drink. I looked up at the menu and couldn’t quite decide what to get. Gosh, those guys behind the counter always seem to be pressuring me! So I got boring and went with peach again. Haha, my friend M got strawberry. You know what he said after drinking it? “Tastes like Nestle Quick!” Guess there weren’t any real strawberries in it.

Okay, so I wanted to talk about crushes. Now how did that subject come up anyways? Oh yeah, I was IM-ing with W and he asked me about those feelings that you had from your childhood crushes. He asked me if I still get those feelings I did when I was a kid. So I thought about it. I tried to remember what it was like.

Seeing your crush from afar and feeling your face turn red. You can’t control it. It just happens. And then, when you make eye contact with your crush… you start to feel your heart beat faster. Suddenly, your palms start to feel sweaty and no matter how much you wipe them on your pants, they’re still damp. It’s like this sudden great rush of heat falls over your face. The sky is blue. The sun is shining. The birds are chirping. Life is beautiful.

I think that’s how it’s supposed to be. Am I wrong? Is that how one feels when they have a major crush on someone else? So as adults, do we still feel that? The thing is, I think a lot of people I know don’t have these feelings much anymore. I wonder what caused it to go away? I suppose when you’re young, you don’t have as much control over your feelings. After all, you’re still getting acquainted with them. As an adult, you have more of a handle on how your react to things because you’ve been through more experiences.

Or maybe, we’ve hardened our hearts so much, that we can’t feel that way anymore. I guess it’s different for everyone. I’ll admit that the older I got, the less I felt of those old childhood crush feelings.

Hmm… so when was the last time your palms got all sweaty when you saw your crush? That just hearing his/her name made your hear skip a beat?

Scarf Girl, signing off.



Aw man, that was sooooo boring… QA-ing all day.. Yuck. And after things switch over tonight, we’re going to have to QA again all next week. Blah. I don’t like to work in the window-less room!

Oh well, at least I’m done with that qa stuff for today. Plus, it’s Friday!! Woohoo!

Hmm… I still want to write about crushes later. Maybe after I get home and if I’m bored tonight. At least my cold is pretty much gone. Yay. I really don’t like to be sick. Bleah…

Oh yeah, I have been eyeing this one camera to sorta replace my brain-dead camera. It’s inexpensive, takes quality pics, and has been given a good rating for. The thing is, it’s still a 1.3mp camera (which I don’t mind), and has no zoom. It’s truly bare bones. I would say it’s like my old camera except with slightly less features. The best part? USB!! I think it’ll be a good replacement until I decide to go all out on a super-duper camera. Well, if I come back a big winner in Reno, I’ll probably end up shelling out the bucks. heehee

SG, signing off.



So I just got into QA room pretty much a few minutes after we were supposed to start, and only myself and one other person are here. What’s up with that? Where is everybody?? Sheesh, probably out getting coffee or a smoke.

This is going to be a boring day… I’ll probably write some more later.

SG, signing off.



Future topic: Crushes. Remember how when we were young it was so easy to have sweaty palms and a quickly beating heart when we saw our crush? Well, as adults, do we still get that way? If not, then how can we get it back?

More on this later.

SG, signing off.



So I was reading BrainPoop’s blog today and saw the Kingdomality Personality Test thing. It’s kinda neato. It tells you what type of person you would’ve been had you lived during the medieval times, that is unless I have misunderstood the test. Anyways, here’s what they said about me:

“Your distinct personality, The Benevolent Ruler might be found in most of the thriving kingdoms of the time. You are the idealistic social dreamer. Your overriding goal is to solve the people problems of your world. You are a social reformer who wants everyone to be happy in a world that you can visualize. You are exceptionally perceptive about the woes and needs of humankind. You often have the understanding and skill to readily conceive and implement the solutions to your perceptions. On the positive side, you are creatively persuasive, charismatic and ideologically concerned. On the negative side, you may be unrealistically sentimental, scattered and impulsive, as well as deviously manipulative. Interestingly, your preference is just as applicable in today’s corporate kingdoms.”

Neato.. You may call me Your Highness. heehee.

Well, off to sleep soon, and full day of QA-ing at work ahead of me… *snore* I won’t be online tomorrow for you peeps out there who I try to entertain during the day. In fact, I’m going to be sitting in a room full of computers with my other co-workers QA-ing ALL DAY LONG tomorrow. Yeah, they didn’t want us to be distracted by phone calls and emails. But I WANT to be distracted. heehee.

Your Royal Scarfness, signing off.




My poor digital camera was damaged recently and I suppose since it’s a bit older, they can’t fix it. To quote their stinkin’ letter:
“Beyond economcial repair due to liquid damage…”


Now what am I going to do? Anybody have a good suggestion for a digital camera? You what else is funny about this letter I received? Well, it also said:
“Please see enclosed list for exchange options..” So I turn to the next page and see a list of items I can “exchange” for. Next to the items are prices. Why would they call it an “exchange” if I have to pay for it? These are full prices listed too. Weird.


Scarf Girl, a little pissed off.



Hmm…so while hanging out with M the other day, we got talking about how high our verticals are and how we would want to improve it. M and some other people I know are going to start this exercise program (taken from a book I think), and try to improve their vertical leap in 12 weeks. It sounds like one of those “lose 30 lbs. in 30 days” gimmicks. I have no idea whether or not it will work, but I’m sure they’ll see some improvement with the weight training and plyometrics combined.

So he got me all excited about the prospects of being able to jump higher. For the longest time, I’ve wanted to be able to jump higher. I figure it would improve my volleyball play. I wasn’t blessed with a whole lot of height, so I have to make up for it somehow. Oh yeah, I’m 5′5″. I guess I shouldn’t be so greedy and complain about my height. I’m not complaining. I’m just saying that I feel a bit limited in playing certain sports.

Well, I’m going to start doing some weights and plyometrics. Every inch is going to count, so I’m going to try and work really hard at it. As of 30 minutes ago, an approaching jump for me is 17″ (that means the steps I take for hitting a ball), and a blocking jump (standing at the net and jumping with both arms up) is 14″. I tested this using my trusty old post-its and sticking them as high as I can. Pretty clever, eh?

When will I start this? Hopefully soon. What is the goal? Jumping as many more inches as possible, but I would like to shoot for 12″. Yeah.. that’s a whole foot. Ambitious? Extremely. Possible? Doubt it, but I’m sure gonna try. I think that 1″ more is better than zero inches more. So we’ll see how this all turns out. Wish me luck!

Scarf Girl, signing off.



I received an email the other from Winnie ( in response to what I wrote on 11/25 about people being picky. Here’s what she wrote:

[begin email]
hi scarfgirl :)

everyone is picky when it comes to finding a SO, if we weren’t picky, we’d just be sleeping with alot of random people who we don’t give a crap about. besides, all of us have a certain “type of person” in mind when we think of our future mate. it’s only normal to do so. and there are indeed fine lines of pickiness (i must admit) but i think for most of us, our list of traits in a person/personality isn’t too far-fetched really. i mean, if we didn’t have certain “expectations” from a SO, then we might as well just match up with anyone right? so whenever i hear that someone is not picky, i always think “yeah right!” as if! we are ALL picky in one way or another. there’s just some people who aren’t realistic about their expectations and qualifications that’s all. :)

my two cents.
[end email]

I guess it’s okay to be a little selective when it comes to choosing the people we want to be with. It’s just that when people use the word “picky” I think of a person who is just making up excuses for themselves.

SG, signing off.



So every so often, I get these bouts where I sneeze and sneeze. Then the next day, it’s gone. Other times, it stays for a couple of days and I figure that it was cold. I think right now, I have the beginnings, or am in the middle of, a cold. I can tell because I have to use so many tissues that my nose starts to get a little peely. Gross, eh?

That’s why I always stress the importance of buying quality tissues. I mean, they sell the regular Kleenex at Costco where is super cheap, but they’re so darn hard on your skin! Don’t be cheap when it comes to certain things!! So now, I buy the Kleenex Cold Care. That stuff is pretty soft. Too bad at work, I only have those generic boxes of Kleenex at my disposal. Yuck.

SG, signing off.



So I was reading wilco’s journal and he mentioned on his 11/25 entry something interesting that I think I’ll write about. Okay, I might butcher this up a little, but the gist of what he said was that you’d think that as you get older, and you have more experience in dating, that it’d be easier.

When I was younger, I always thought that the middle school / high school crushes and stuff were so tough. Being a teenager sure is hard. I thought to myself, “I bet when I’m older and wiser, this sort of thing will be a piece of cake.” Well, I’m older now (and I’m not quite sure if I’m really all that much wiser), but I’ve learned that the older you get, the more difficult and complicated dating stuff gets. I don’t know really why that is, but it’s what I’ve come to believe.

I suppose that with age, people have gone through more dating experiences. Some people have had meaningful relationships where they fell in love, while others may have become jaded by being screwed over. All this adds up to emotional baggage of some sort. People become more scared and often more conservative when it comes to dating. Maybe they don’t date with such an open mind. Maybe they are more choosy. Maybe they have learned to recognize what they believe are “signs” that someone isn’t right for them and therefore, don’t even bother to try.

These are the reasons why I think dating doesn’t get easier when you get older. I guess it’s just more…different. After all, the older you get, the more people your age start thinking about marriage, since everybody around you seems to be either getting married or having kids.

Hmm.. I wonder how much emotional baggage I carry subconciously? I know that pretty much everybody has some. It’s just a matter of how much they have, and how we all deal with it in future relationships. Something to ponder about I guess.

SG, signing off.


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